Friday

It's a beautiful sunny fall day today in the Pacific NW. Cool outside though. I am listening to my Ipod "Flower Power" songs from the Time Life series from the 60's/70's, the CDs were loaned to me by one of my bosses. "Ball of Confusion" is playing right now.....today is my co-worker Becky's 60th birthday. We all met up before work for breakfast and gave her presents, I had a veggie omlette and hash browns and toast, but only ate half, saved the rest for later. I am trying to stay clear of sugar, did have some sugar free jam on the toast. I am pretty disgusted with my inability to stay away from junk food and lose the 20 lbs I need to. I am trying to psych myself up by telling myself that if I can lose this 20 lbs then my hip joints will feel a lot better and won't ache and be as stiff from the arthritis, as the extra weight off will relieve pressure off the joints. I want so desperately to feel better. I know not eating junk and losing some weight will help. But at times, I get depressed and want to eat to comfort myself, because I am frustrated with the physical limitations I have now.
I am casting it all over to the Lord. I really need His help.